Happy 1st fathers day in Heaven Pop-Pop.
I cant even begin expressing how much I miss him. The only thing that comforts me is knowing he isnt suffering anymore. There is finally no more pain. I wish he could be at my wedding and watch my kids grow up but I am going to tell them all about him. I am lucky to have had three great men in my life ( 4 if you count my brother who is slowly turning into one.) My grandfather was always the life of the party, and still although he is passed, we talk about him for hours and remember all of his jokes and hard work.
I havent really had a breakdown like this since he’s passed. Except for that one time in AC when Josh was using Barbasol shaving cream and I locked myself in the bathroom and cried while clutching the bottle closely to my nose. Or yesterday when I got in his car and the sun had heated the car up and the smell of the beach was deep in the leather and a very faint scent of his cologne was embedded in the carpet and it smelled so good and made me cry for 45 minuets in the driveway. Actually, I probably cry about missing him atleast once a week.
Today, I am crying twice as much.